Okay I am not an expert on foreign policy by any stretch of the imagination, but I know that there will be more turblence ahead and more violence, but eventually this will all come to an end. The worlds dependency on oil has made this situation worse because the world supplies these countries weapons which certainly causes more problems.
It seems at times that when looking at the situation that everyone there seems to dislike everyone else, but this will all change in about 8 years. Why 8 years you ask I am not actually sure I just think 8 seems like a pretty magic number. And what we need in the middle east is a whole lot of magic. And by magic I mean the ability to make everyone forget all the previous fighting and start with a blank slate. How can this happen you ask? Love which also includes sex that is so amazing that people can't remember how to load a gun much less have the motivation to fire it. If we loved more and part of love is taking your time during sex then there would be less time for war. It is really true when they say make love not war. So simpe but so true I would rather be making love then going to war any day of the week. We need to improve the world's love lifes. Though I joke I am also somewhat serious.
If people loved to garden more or loved to play sports more or loved to write more there would simply be less time for war and less time for oil consumption. Now I can be certain but I think there is some odd correlation between oil consumption and the intensity of war in the middle east. Perhaps if this country and other countries relied more on other forms of energy perhaps it would help to diffuse the middle east and perhaps in 8 years or less that will become the case.
Things in the world were once peaceuful and they shall become that way again even in the turblent middle east, especially in the middle east.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Its ALL Happening
Anyone out there feeling the earth shifting? because I swear we are in the midst of swing that I can't even begin to get at in words. I feel my ability to heal and sense things before they happen is becoming much stronger. As any one of us evolves it makes easier for other people to do the same. The rolling ball of evolution was dropped a long time ago and now we are approaching critical mass. More and more I find myself nsync with things going on around me. I am resisting less and less and it is helping me fly further and further. Your awakening is also my awakening and soon many of us will come together in ways unimagined and there will be a whole lot of shaking going on.
Recently I have noticed more and more people from foreign countries are reading this blog and I realize that what I am saying is getting out into the world. Even if it causes just the smallest glimpse of inward introspection it means that we as species are getting closer to realizing a more peaceful existence. I am not an astrologer, but I can feel a shift similar to the feeling when you realize that the team that is up by 20 points is going to end up losing the game. THe tide is turning and I see a fleet of vegetable oil buses going around this country and bringing about rapid changes. The people are ready to grow and nothing can stand in their way.
I will be everywhere and anywhere spreading this message of our interconnectedness, but it is something that must be internalized not intellectualized in order for lasting change to form. Take a moment right now and do something that makes you more aware of something around you that you had previously never given thought to. Think of the process involved in making your computer work or turning your light on. These are all things that are very intricate and by themselves seem to accomplish very little until the moment the light comes on. The light is about to come on my friends and once it comes on it can never be turned off in any way shape or form.
I send my love to all of you who are reading this and using this to become more enmeshed in the moment your in. Use your ability to create and just let things unfold accordingly.
Recently I have noticed more and more people from foreign countries are reading this blog and I realize that what I am saying is getting out into the world. Even if it causes just the smallest glimpse of inward introspection it means that we as species are getting closer to realizing a more peaceful existence. I am not an astrologer, but I can feel a shift similar to the feeling when you realize that the team that is up by 20 points is going to end up losing the game. THe tide is turning and I see a fleet of vegetable oil buses going around this country and bringing about rapid changes. The people are ready to grow and nothing can stand in their way.
I will be everywhere and anywhere spreading this message of our interconnectedness, but it is something that must be internalized not intellectualized in order for lasting change to form. Take a moment right now and do something that makes you more aware of something around you that you had previously never given thought to. Think of the process involved in making your computer work or turning your light on. These are all things that are very intricate and by themselves seem to accomplish very little until the moment the light comes on. The light is about to come on my friends and once it comes on it can never be turned off in any way shape or form.
I send my love to all of you who are reading this and using this to become more enmeshed in the moment your in. Use your ability to create and just let things unfold accordingly.
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Give Me A Prophecy
And I'll give you a prophet. It happened and you know it; stop kidding yourself there is a reason that you can't sleep. You woke up and with it we all woke up. It was your dream and then you became a part of the dream. Miracle pranksters, here we come because we were born for a prophecy just like we were told, but they twisted it and now in the moment of clarity it has become untwisted and we all just pause.
Sure I go to extremes and somewhere in between I find a balance and free falling that Tom Petty would envy. Into the great wide open there is a truth and you need to stare it straight in the face and laugh, cry, scream, and just stop. Fuck and forget what they said because they said it out of fear. Dream bigger then anyone accepts as plausible and never stop being that dream. We are all wanderers even if we seem not to leave our towns, villages, or cities very often. Every night I see all of you on a realm where we construct this very world that begs to bring forth a beauty that makes us stop.
We all run so fast, spinning wheels and getting nowhere because we were always there. Accept the new eyes being offered and perecieve this world for all the amazing things that it offers. View as it alien here on a temporary adventure/vacation and you will never grow tired of anything.
Get on the bus, boat, plane or car and let's charter a new course. Let's send this game into overtime and let's all nail that shot, the one that is impossible; accept that we nail it all the time in our dreams and this is our dream. We stop and drop into the river and ocean and go with this current but see everything pass us by as we remain in a state of serenity.
Sure I go to extremes and somewhere in between I find a balance and free falling that Tom Petty would envy. Into the great wide open there is a truth and you need to stare it straight in the face and laugh, cry, scream, and just stop. Fuck and forget what they said because they said it out of fear. Dream bigger then anyone accepts as plausible and never stop being that dream. We are all wanderers even if we seem not to leave our towns, villages, or cities very often. Every night I see all of you on a realm where we construct this very world that begs to bring forth a beauty that makes us stop.
We all run so fast, spinning wheels and getting nowhere because we were always there. Accept the new eyes being offered and perecieve this world for all the amazing things that it offers. View as it alien here on a temporary adventure/vacation and you will never grow tired of anything.
Get on the bus, boat, plane or car and let's charter a new course. Let's send this game into overtime and let's all nail that shot, the one that is impossible; accept that we nail it all the time in our dreams and this is our dream. We stop and drop into the river and ocean and go with this current but see everything pass us by as we remain in a state of serenity.
Who is The Messiah
Instead of American Idol we should have a new show called American Messiah. I think it would be fascinating who the American people would choose as their messiah and then our Messiah could go head to head with other people's messiah. We all seem to want someone to worship, but all of the people we worship are usually very vain, destrutive, or apathetic towards anything other then their careers. The more self absorb they are the more we seem to admire them. Maybe we should pick a half way decent messiah and maybe somebody will start to ponder and with that pondering a change would take place. That change would spread and all of sudden people would not be held in bondage by religion but feel relief and true freedom instead as we probably intended.
Most religious people I have come across are so in their heads they miss the point of everything that they spout from their own mouths. If we transcend thought then we start to realize the oneness of everything. Wake Up Wake up wake up and I will do the same and we might realize that we are all sleeping messiahs. I do believe everyone has the potential to be a messiah they just need to become aware of themselves and the world that we are currently emeshed in. Somehow the sane people are crazy and the crazy people are at very the least more sincere. So if the messiah is reading this which I am sure that they are wake up to who you are and I'll do the same and maybe we could bring some people back from the dead and perhaps they already have come back.
This idea of a messiah intrigues many people and they talk about a messiah complex, but really a few more messiahs in the mix would be an awesome thing. I am in Boulder and then I am going to Burning Man and I will keep on the look out for a messiah and if you find a good one notify me. I was recently part of a project and they were looking for a messiah they actually chose me and another guy, but I am still looking for clues as to where this mysterious messiah may rest. I feel that we are so close and once all the illusions fade away they will make their presence known. Long live the American Messiah and long live alll messiahs for that fact.
Most religious people I have come across are so in their heads they miss the point of everything that they spout from their own mouths. If we transcend thought then we start to realize the oneness of everything. Wake Up Wake up wake up and I will do the same and we might realize that we are all sleeping messiahs. I do believe everyone has the potential to be a messiah they just need to become aware of themselves and the world that we are currently emeshed in. Somehow the sane people are crazy and the crazy people are at very the least more sincere. So if the messiah is reading this which I am sure that they are wake up to who you are and I'll do the same and maybe we could bring some people back from the dead and perhaps they already have come back.
This idea of a messiah intrigues many people and they talk about a messiah complex, but really a few more messiahs in the mix would be an awesome thing. I am in Boulder and then I am going to Burning Man and I will keep on the look out for a messiah and if you find a good one notify me. I was recently part of a project and they were looking for a messiah they actually chose me and another guy, but I am still looking for clues as to where this mysterious messiah may rest. I feel that we are so close and once all the illusions fade away they will make their presence known. Long live the American Messiah and long live alll messiahs for that fact.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
A little Something
Somehow in life we are inspired by people that we never knew or met or are inspired by people we never even existed. I just get out there becasue it is the only thing that makes sense to me. I won't let anyone especially myself box me into what I have to do or where I have to be. I have a cosmic wave that I am riding and with that wave comes change and change is the basis of life. Of course you probably know this now live it. All things change so that new things can come about. I am currently in Boulder Colorado listening to Radiohead and taking a moment to just write.
It does not matter what you write about as long as you mean what you say in that moment of course moments change and people are nervous about their next move when everything is in doubt. I get pulled to places and people and I arrive at moment just before major change. I learn from each encounter. I have found a peace inside of myself in every place that I venture to and something there for me to realize. There is a waking up taking place and it will change everything that we know even now. This change is taking place and we are all part of this massive change. We are all maigcal if we open ourselves up and not try to shut down and numb ourselves. It is okay to cry and be sad these are emotions that have to be processed, There is nothing wrong with being scared, but you just push forward and follow your intution. Either play it safe or go all out don't just sit in the middle.
I want to reach out and grab everyone of you and know that all encounters help us to become more aware if we allow ourselves to experience this awareness. We are all rolling stones and thru that movement we create networks of energy that bring about a new way. The old model wiill not work so start creating new ones. We can not sustain ourselves unless we start to inwardly reflect and slow down. A little something is all we need to change everything. A little something exists inside of us and does not need to be sought externally.
It does not matter what you write about as long as you mean what you say in that moment of course moments change and people are nervous about their next move when everything is in doubt. I get pulled to places and people and I arrive at moment just before major change. I learn from each encounter. I have found a peace inside of myself in every place that I venture to and something there for me to realize. There is a waking up taking place and it will change everything that we know even now. This change is taking place and we are all part of this massive change. We are all maigcal if we open ourselves up and not try to shut down and numb ourselves. It is okay to cry and be sad these are emotions that have to be processed, There is nothing wrong with being scared, but you just push forward and follow your intution. Either play it safe or go all out don't just sit in the middle.
I want to reach out and grab everyone of you and know that all encounters help us to become more aware if we allow ourselves to experience this awareness. We are all rolling stones and thru that movement we create networks of energy that bring about a new way. The old model wiill not work so start creating new ones. We can not sustain ourselves unless we start to inwardly reflect and slow down. A little something is all we need to change everything. A little something exists inside of us and does not need to be sought externally.
Saturday, August 19, 2006
The Stock Market Will Crash
I know this is really weird thing to blog about, but I can't help it. I was meditating and I got this strong feeling that the Dow Jones and the rest of the market was going to a major turn towards the downside in the next 6-12 months and continue downward for a while. I am sure some expert out there might think the same thing, but my opinion is merely based on a feeling. I would say there would be a 40-45% correction within 2 years time or less. I would put my money if I had any in precious metals, overseas markets and real estate (when paper is not worth anything land still has value).
Someday somebody will find this and say holy shit and it will have slipped my mind that I even wrote this, but we are due for so major changes in this world and the stock market crashing will be an outward indicator of this change. We are a very over extended nation and we need to collectively self reflect a bit more and see what really matters and what we need and what we don't need. A stock market crash will certainly trigger that for many people. I recommend that you meditate on this idea and see what comes thru for you, but this is what I got while meditating yesterday.
much love and evolution,
Te'DeVan
Someday somebody will find this and say holy shit and it will have slipped my mind that I even wrote this, but we are due for so major changes in this world and the stock market crashing will be an outward indicator of this change. We are a very over extended nation and we need to collectively self reflect a bit more and see what really matters and what we need and what we don't need. A stock market crash will certainly trigger that for many people. I recommend that you meditate on this idea and see what comes thru for you, but this is what I got while meditating yesterday.
much love and evolution,
Te'DeVan
Saturday, August 12, 2006
It's All Smiley's Fault (and maybe Doctor Jones as well)
I think it is about time like every good politician that I blame everything on someone else who may or may not be real. His name is Smiley and "He Hates All Mass Media". Or at least he has yelled this phrase a couple of times while extremely drunk and maybe sober. If it was not for him I would be a stockbroker/investment banker with short hair living the life that was more expected of me (think wall street but taller).
But one day in LBI on a beach pier nearby a police station he yelled down to me "Hey you want to start a revolution". Without missing a beat I replied "Heell to the yeah" or maybe just "Hell yeah" time has faded my memory on exactly what my response was. This is the moment that everyone can look back on and say it was all his fault. I am not upset about all the craziness that has ensued and will continue to ensue, but I just wanted to take this time to tell you it was all Smiley's fault and perhaps a man who goes by Doctor Jones (who is not actully a doctor, but he does have lots of patience) who was involved in more ways then I could even begin to imagine. I feel that they had scoped me out for years without my knowledge. They knew what I was capable of and decided without my knowing that I would be the one. They knew that I could not resist such an offer. The offer of a lifetime (the one that Castro had given to Che back in the day) to bring about a revolution at a point in society where most people had given up on such an idea or merely viewed it as fantasy.
They knew that I was indeed naive enough and crazy enough to attempt this revolution and so it was decided in mid-August of 2000 without my knowledge that I would start this revolution.
I am truly thankful that I was chosen by the powers that be to start this revolution and have no regrets, but when it all goes down and they are looking for clues on how all this took place I suggest talking to Smiley and Doctor Jones, assuming they actually exist and people around me have not just be humoring me about their existence for the last six years. Sometimes I wonder if I might be living in some sort of fight club world (without the violence or operation mayhem) with the same idea of breaking down the system in ways that nobody; and I mean nobdy saw coming with the exception of Smiley and Doctor Jones.
Whether they are real or not does not matter, but when you want someone to blame for me going so far off the deep end blame them, but I will still always thank both of them from the bottom of my heart. When a revolution came knocking I couldn't resist. Could you?
But one day in LBI on a beach pier nearby a police station he yelled down to me "Hey you want to start a revolution". Without missing a beat I replied "Heell to the yeah" or maybe just "Hell yeah" time has faded my memory on exactly what my response was. This is the moment that everyone can look back on and say it was all his fault. I am not upset about all the craziness that has ensued and will continue to ensue, but I just wanted to take this time to tell you it was all Smiley's fault and perhaps a man who goes by Doctor Jones (who is not actully a doctor, but he does have lots of patience) who was involved in more ways then I could even begin to imagine. I feel that they had scoped me out for years without my knowledge. They knew what I was capable of and decided without my knowing that I would be the one. They knew that I could not resist such an offer. The offer of a lifetime (the one that Castro had given to Che back in the day) to bring about a revolution at a point in society where most people had given up on such an idea or merely viewed it as fantasy.
They knew that I was indeed naive enough and crazy enough to attempt this revolution and so it was decided in mid-August of 2000 without my knowledge that I would start this revolution.
I am truly thankful that I was chosen by the powers that be to start this revolution and have no regrets, but when it all goes down and they are looking for clues on how all this took place I suggest talking to Smiley and Doctor Jones, assuming they actually exist and people around me have not just be humoring me about their existence for the last six years. Sometimes I wonder if I might be living in some sort of fight club world (without the violence or operation mayhem) with the same idea of breaking down the system in ways that nobody; and I mean nobdy saw coming with the exception of Smiley and Doctor Jones.
Whether they are real or not does not matter, but when you want someone to blame for me going so far off the deep end blame them, but I will still always thank both of them from the bottom of my heart. When a revolution came knocking I couldn't resist. Could you?
It's All Smiley's Fault (and maybe Doctor Jones as well)
I think it is about time like every good politician that I blame everything on someone else who may or may not be real. His name is Smiley and "He Hates All Mass Media". Or at least he has yelled this phrase a couple of times while extremely drunk and maybe sober. If it was not for him I would be a stockbroker/investment banker with short hair living the life that was more expected of me (think wall street but taller).
But one day in LBI on a beach pier nearby a police station he yelled down to me "Hey you want to start a revolution". Without missing a beat I replied "Heell to the yeah" or maybe just "Hell yeah" time has faded my memory on exactly what my response was. This is the moment that everyone can look back on and say it was all his fault. I am not upset about all the craziness that has ensued and will continue to ensue, but I just wanted to take this time to tell you it was all Smiley's fault and perhaps a man who goes by Doctor Jones (who is not actully a doctor, but he does have lots of patience) who was involved in more ways then I could even begin to imagine. I feel that they had scoped me out for years without my knowledge. They knew what I was capable of and decided without my knowing that I would be the one. They knew that I could not resist such an offer. The offer of a lifetime (the one that Castro had given to Che back in the day) to bring about a revolution at a point in society where most people had given up on such an idea or merely viewed it as fantasy.
They knew that I was indeed naive enough and crazy enough to attempt this revolution and so it was decided in mid-August of 2000 without my knowledge that I would start this revolution.
I am truly thankful that I was chosen by the powers that be to start this revolution and have no regrets, but when it all goes down and they are looking for clues on how all this took place I suggest talking to Smiley and Doctor Jones, assuming they actually exist and people around me have not just be humoring me about their existence for the last six years. Sometimes I wonder if I might be living in some sort of fight club world (without the violence or operation mayhem) with the same idea of breaking down the system in ways that nobody; and I mean nobdy saw coming with the exception of Smiley and Doctor Jones.
Whether they are real or not does not matter, but when you want someone to blame for me going so far off the deep end blame them, but I will still always thank both of them from the bottom of my heart. When a revolution came knocking I couldn't resist. Could you?
But one day in LBI on a beach pier nearby a police station he yelled down to me "Hey you want to start a revolution". Without missing a beat I replied "Heell to the yeah" or maybe just "Hell yeah" time has faded my memory on exactly what my response was. This is the moment that everyone can look back on and say it was all his fault. I am not upset about all the craziness that has ensued and will continue to ensue, but I just wanted to take this time to tell you it was all Smiley's fault and perhaps a man who goes by Doctor Jones (who is not actully a doctor, but he does have lots of patience) who was involved in more ways then I could even begin to imagine. I feel that they had scoped me out for years without my knowledge. They knew what I was capable of and decided without my knowing that I would be the one. They knew that I could not resist such an offer. The offer of a lifetime (the one that Castro had given to Che back in the day) to bring about a revolution at a point in society where most people had given up on such an idea or merely viewed it as fantasy.
They knew that I was indeed naive enough and crazy enough to attempt this revolution and so it was decided in mid-August of 2000 without my knowledge that I would start this revolution.
I am truly thankful that I was chosen by the powers that be to start this revolution and have no regrets, but when it all goes down and they are looking for clues on how all this took place I suggest talking to Smiley and Doctor Jones, assuming they actually exist and people around me have not just be humoring me about their existence for the last six years. Sometimes I wonder if I might be living in some sort of fight club world (without the violence or operation mayhem) with the same idea of breaking down the system in ways that nobody; and I mean nobdy saw coming with the exception of Smiley and Doctor Jones.
Whether they are real or not does not matter, but when you want someone to blame for me going so far off the deep end blame them, but I will still always thank both of them from the bottom of my heart. When a revolution came knocking I couldn't resist. Could you?
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Someone In Iran Inspired This One
Recently I was looking thru the ticker on my blog which tells me where people are reading my blog from and I was shocked an estatic to see that someone from Iran was looking at my blog. I could only begin to imagine who that would be and I just want you to know I hope to do something about changing the foreign policies of this country and move them more in the direction of peace.
I am just wanderer in country where people can't seem to let themselves wander just because they desire to wander. Not all who wander are aimless is the famous quote and not all who are aimless wander. Some of them seem content not to explore, but I desire to explore and remember my many lives past. Recently I have not been fired up to write, but knowing that was reaching someone all the way in Iran made me realize the one amazing benefit of something like the internet.
I am currently in Chicago and the only somewhat certain plans I have is to make it to Burning Man and meet some amazing adventurers and people that tip the scales. This revolution starts deep inside of our core and continues to spread as we all ourselves to pause our minds and increase our awareness. I am aware of you and you are now aware of me. I want peace and I will find inside of myself and make it thru all the doubt and fear to get there because the peace has to come from within if it is to be lasting.
I am just wanderer in country where people can't seem to let themselves wander just because they desire to wander. Not all who wander are aimless is the famous quote and not all who are aimless wander. Some of them seem content not to explore, but I desire to explore and remember my many lives past. Recently I have not been fired up to write, but knowing that was reaching someone all the way in Iran made me realize the one amazing benefit of something like the internet.
I am currently in Chicago and the only somewhat certain plans I have is to make it to Burning Man and meet some amazing adventurers and people that tip the scales. This revolution starts deep inside of our core and continues to spread as we all ourselves to pause our minds and increase our awareness. I am aware of you and you are now aware of me. I want peace and I will find inside of myself and make it thru all the doubt and fear to get there because the peace has to come from within if it is to be lasting.
Friday, July 28, 2006
Dance Dance Dance
I love to dance and when I do people flip out and then I flip out more and I nobody expects me to talk while I am dancing. It is so simple it is movements made inspired by music that you are enjoying. It is wonderful to express who you are thru your movements and then people learn more about then they would of having an hour of typical conversation. Dancing personifies being and is something that so many people claim that can't do. I have yet to meet a three year old who can't dance. Stop censoring yourself from expressing yourself especially when you are joyful. Life is a dance that never begins or ends.
I want you to dance wherever and whenever the inspiration strikes. I want you to stop taking things entirely too seriously to the point that you can't seem to enjoy anything. Let it all out and twist and shout and twist and shout and stop whining about a lack of dance skills. It is not a dance off it is about being and feeling aliving and encouraging others to do the same.
Remember all she wants to do is dance dance and that is all I want to do as well.
I want you to dance wherever and whenever the inspiration strikes. I want you to stop taking things entirely too seriously to the point that you can't seem to enjoy anything. Let it all out and twist and shout and twist and shout and stop whining about a lack of dance skills. It is not a dance off it is about being and feeling aliving and encouraging others to do the same.
Remember all she wants to do is dance dance and that is all I want to do as well.
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
It is All Inside
I don't know what I am doing and I have not fully realized who I am and I still get caught up in things that don't matter and sometimes I lose sight of the most important things, but I continue to catch myself doing it and make changes in a more immediate fashion. I am not enlightened merely another human trying to remember his soul. I am immensely happy and though not easily angered or annoyed I have my moments. I try to stay connected to my breath and all the amazing things that exist in the current moment.
I am on quest to be the impossible dream and I am here to play it out all the way. I recently had the pleasure of seeing Amma again and sometimes by seeing such a remarkable individual we are inspired in ways we don't understand and sometimes it is subtle and sometimes it is more dramatic, but either is significant. I know that if I want to see a change in the world it truly needs to start by me going deeper inside of myself on a regular basis and participating in things that bring about a stronger sense of fullfillment. Life is too short not to pursue what exists inside of ourselves. Nobody can offer me utopia unless we find it inside of ourselves. Yet, seeing it reflected in another person makes it easier to find it within.
I am on quest to be the impossible dream and I am here to play it out all the way. I recently had the pleasure of seeing Amma again and sometimes by seeing such a remarkable individual we are inspired in ways we don't understand and sometimes it is subtle and sometimes it is more dramatic, but either is significant. I know that if I want to see a change in the world it truly needs to start by me going deeper inside of myself on a regular basis and participating in things that bring about a stronger sense of fullfillment. Life is too short not to pursue what exists inside of ourselves. Nobody can offer me utopia unless we find it inside of ourselves. Yet, seeing it reflected in another person makes it easier to find it within.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Desperately seeking something a little more absurd
I need something a little more absurd in my life. Somewhere along the way of in this sea of not trying to be like everyone else, I have boxed myself into this contrived 6’7” free rapping chi gong healing Jew hat everyone thinks is so unique or so original but at this point neither do I find it unique or original.
It’s more just something I do. I feel somehow ordinary, and not that being ordinary bothers me, but I need something more absurd in an eccentric wet dream sort of way.
I want to ride camels through New York City spouting out the philosophies of Dead Kennedys. I want to be in an 80s rock band. I want to suddenly discover that I have pitch. I want to wake up to find out that I really am a lesbian black Eskimo trapped in the real world . I want to fight walruses and fuck tigers. I want to make David Bowie look painfully straight. I want to cut like a ninja fucking his dead mother in Prince’s purple rain. I want to be a King of Spain even if no one will acknowledge me as such. I want to be the princess of Barcelona. I want to succeed from Union Square Park within Union Square Park and create a special park for people’s balls who hang really low and who somehow don’t know that they’re balls hang really low until they walk around at Burning Man and someone says “Hey, you’re balls hang really low.”
I want to develop profound crushes on autistic 40 year old women who work the counter at Whole Foods while I whack off in the magazine section thinking of pixies and fairies and the autistic 40 year old woman who works the counter at Whole Foods. And mermaids.
I want to breathe through my dorsal. WHAT THE HELL IS A DORSAL? (I’ve just been informed it’s a fin). I want to commit sins and still win. I want to kick Tin Tins ass. I don’t so much want to shoot Lassie but piss in his eyes. I want to wrestle the Beaver, take the Partridge Family on a real adventure, and insist that no matter how light my complexion may be that I am really a part of the Jackson Five and that everyone just can’t remember. I want to give head to Hillary Clinton and I want everything I write now to be used against me at a later time. I want my sanity or lack of sanity to be put in question, and I want people to know if insane is really just a better way to go, or if we should even go at all ,or if George Michael was really wrong to wake me up before we go-go.
And I want Wham and the son of Sam to get together and rid the world of Spam. And ham! Because pigs have 30 minute orgasms - don’t you forget it. And if they call you a pig fucker for knowing it, smile and say ‘better to fuck pigs than corpses and mannequins masquerading as people.’
I want to seethe out my pores with an ever ending flow of red carpet shooting out of my orifices asking for someone actually genuinely interesting, interested in a dramatic change of events to walk down that carpet, wearing nothing but their boxes, singing songs about Debbie Gibson. Because only electric youth can jam the circuits and only when we jam the circuits can we have black outs in New York City and only then can class barriers be broken down and only then can I fuck the cute girl in the Upper West Side who smiled at me because I don’t ski and I don’t summer where she does and I don’t wear Burberry unless someone gives it to me.
I want to glorify Gucci and kill Prada.
I want to be the biggest contradiction you ever thought about fucking. Or not fucking. Or hugging, or kissing, or missing or dissing or pissing in the wind and you realize if you piss in the wind that they’re this thing called urine therapy so if you swallow your own piss it’s actually therapeutic.
Think about something. Think about everything. Think about nothing, think about winking, think about blinking, think about Fight Club, think about too many Rubber Duckies in the tub. Think about the hub of your life and who you are in that hub, think about not thinking and just being loved from above.
Seeing, said, match, absurdist mission, be gone.
It’s more just something I do. I feel somehow ordinary, and not that being ordinary bothers me, but I need something more absurd in an eccentric wet dream sort of way.
I want to ride camels through New York City spouting out the philosophies of Dead Kennedys. I want to be in an 80s rock band. I want to suddenly discover that I have pitch. I want to wake up to find out that I really am a lesbian black Eskimo trapped in the real world . I want to fight walruses and fuck tigers. I want to make David Bowie look painfully straight. I want to cut like a ninja fucking his dead mother in Prince’s purple rain. I want to be a King of Spain even if no one will acknowledge me as such. I want to be the princess of Barcelona. I want to succeed from Union Square Park within Union Square Park and create a special park for people’s balls who hang really low and who somehow don’t know that they’re balls hang really low until they walk around at Burning Man and someone says “Hey, you’re balls hang really low.”
I want to develop profound crushes on autistic 40 year old women who work the counter at Whole Foods while I whack off in the magazine section thinking of pixies and fairies and the autistic 40 year old woman who works the counter at Whole Foods. And mermaids.
I want to breathe through my dorsal. WHAT THE HELL IS A DORSAL? (I’ve just been informed it’s a fin). I want to commit sins and still win. I want to kick Tin Tins ass. I don’t so much want to shoot Lassie but piss in his eyes. I want to wrestle the Beaver, take the Partridge Family on a real adventure, and insist that no matter how light my complexion may be that I am really a part of the Jackson Five and that everyone just can’t remember. I want to give head to Hillary Clinton and I want everything I write now to be used against me at a later time. I want my sanity or lack of sanity to be put in question, and I want people to know if insane is really just a better way to go, or if we should even go at all ,or if George Michael was really wrong to wake me up before we go-go.
And I want Wham and the son of Sam to get together and rid the world of Spam. And ham! Because pigs have 30 minute orgasms - don’t you forget it. And if they call you a pig fucker for knowing it, smile and say ‘better to fuck pigs than corpses and mannequins masquerading as people.’
I want to seethe out my pores with an ever ending flow of red carpet shooting out of my orifices asking for someone actually genuinely interesting, interested in a dramatic change of events to walk down that carpet, wearing nothing but their boxes, singing songs about Debbie Gibson. Because only electric youth can jam the circuits and only when we jam the circuits can we have black outs in New York City and only then can class barriers be broken down and only then can I fuck the cute girl in the Upper West Side who smiled at me because I don’t ski and I don’t summer where she does and I don’t wear Burberry unless someone gives it to me.
I want to glorify Gucci and kill Prada.
I want to be the biggest contradiction you ever thought about fucking. Or not fucking. Or hugging, or kissing, or missing or dissing or pissing in the wind and you realize if you piss in the wind that they’re this thing called urine therapy so if you swallow your own piss it’s actually therapeutic.
Think about something. Think about everything. Think about nothing, think about winking, think about blinking, think about Fight Club, think about too many Rubber Duckies in the tub. Think about the hub of your life and who you are in that hub, think about not thinking and just being loved from above.
Seeing, said, match, absurdist mission, be gone.
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Cars Computers and televisions are not the only things evoloving
People love to talk about and think about how all these things are evoloving, but very few people discuss how we maybe evolving and what we are headed towards. It is my firm belief (knowing) that as species we are heading towards a point that more and more people will start to become aware of their natural abilites that we still ignorantly call supernatural. In most first world countries this sort of thing is considered nonsense and something to be talked about or discussed, but I know that we are evolving and with that evolution we shall become more aware of that other 90% of our brain that is often ignored.
I believe that we all have telekentic, psychic, healing, channeling abilities. Yes that is right - I believe that all of us are x-men of a sort, accept we usually call these people mystics instead. Our culture does not put an emphasis in going inside and finding these gifts. Many of these gifts will be of some amazing benefit to all of us as we continue to enter into more turbulent times. Our ability to make our mind still is the first key to tapping into these subtle energy fields that exist around us, but it is a process and not a process that will show scientifically acceptable results initally, but I have never been one for science because dismisses that which it can not understand under its current system and constructs. I am interested in the one out of a thousand or one out of a billion that has found these innate abilities inside of themselves. There is more then enough evidence out there that leads me to the conclusion that we are all heading in this direction and soon many of us will be developing our innate abilities.
One of the key components to tapping into these gifts is making the mind quiet and from there the sky is the limit as Biggie would say.
I believe that we all have telekentic, psychic, healing, channeling abilities. Yes that is right - I believe that all of us are x-men of a sort, accept we usually call these people mystics instead. Our culture does not put an emphasis in going inside and finding these gifts. Many of these gifts will be of some amazing benefit to all of us as we continue to enter into more turbulent times. Our ability to make our mind still is the first key to tapping into these subtle energy fields that exist around us, but it is a process and not a process that will show scientifically acceptable results initally, but I have never been one for science because dismisses that which it can not understand under its current system and constructs. I am interested in the one out of a thousand or one out of a billion that has found these innate abilities inside of themselves. There is more then enough evidence out there that leads me to the conclusion that we are all heading in this direction and soon many of us will be developing our innate abilities.
One of the key components to tapping into these gifts is making the mind quiet and from there the sky is the limit as Biggie would say.
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Something Important
Most writers want to say something meaningful or something that defines a generation or something that will help you get paid or laid. I probably write for all these reasons, but I also write because I am slightly egotistical and obcessive compulsive and I feel that I have to write. If I don't get these thoughts out there and some random person living in Denmark, Japan, Italy, Tennesse, Florida, Jersey, or Canda does not know my thoughts on many various subjects then I might just simply fall apart. My whole identity rests on checking my ticker and seeing who is reading my blog and from where they currently reside. I get bonus points if I have never heard of the place or if it is really far away.
I often wander how the hell people find this blog and what goes thru their mind as they are reading this. Has anyone actually gone forward with any of the ideas I put out there into cyber space. I now currently average a bit over 20 people a day who view this blog. This is the equilvalent of teaching some sort of highschool class where the subject matter changes everyday and if the students get bored they will stop reading the material.
Figure out the one important thing that you want to do in your life and pursue that to the fullest without even considering any sort of compromise of your passion. I want all of you to further revolution in your own personal life. We all have immense potential if we just slow down enough and allow ourselves to see it. I write in hopes that I can inspire just a few people to live the life they have always dreamed of and make the world a bit more colorful because we are in desperate need of a laugh. May the joksters become kings and the kings become dragon food and may the queen say "I told you so" (even if she didn't). We need more well publicized gonzo journalists delivering the news because these other guys are just blending together and seem fairly non-descript with the exception of Andy Rooney.
We must write so that people know that someone somewhere has a dissenting opinion that they are willing to share.
I often wander how the hell people find this blog and what goes thru their mind as they are reading this. Has anyone actually gone forward with any of the ideas I put out there into cyber space. I now currently average a bit over 20 people a day who view this blog. This is the equilvalent of teaching some sort of highschool class where the subject matter changes everyday and if the students get bored they will stop reading the material.
Figure out the one important thing that you want to do in your life and pursue that to the fullest without even considering any sort of compromise of your passion. I want all of you to further revolution in your own personal life. We all have immense potential if we just slow down enough and allow ourselves to see it. I write in hopes that I can inspire just a few people to live the life they have always dreamed of and make the world a bit more colorful because we are in desperate need of a laugh. May the joksters become kings and the kings become dragon food and may the queen say "I told you so" (even if she didn't). We need more well publicized gonzo journalists delivering the news because these other guys are just blending together and seem fairly non-descript with the exception of Andy Rooney.
We must write so that people know that someone somewhere has a dissenting opinion that they are willing to share.
Thursday, June 29, 2006
What Should I write About
Sometimes when we write no specific topic comes to mind, but we want to write. I love writing because it allows me to reach quite a few people and hopefully impact their day in a positive way. I want people to be relentlessly in pursuing what they want, but not to forget to enjoy the pursuit. A revolution comes in the strangest way because intially you can not see it and only if you speak the truth will the people be moved.
May I prick like a vine as you taste the grapes of wrath and we are all characters from our favorite books and movies. I want to wake up because sleeping hurts too much. I am a flower wilting in a jungle of concrete but I come back and I come back like Ivy on the walls and the writing on these walls becomes brighter to the point that you have to take notice. I have no magic that you don't possess yourself. If there is one difference it is that I am almost dogmatic in following this magic and letting it guide me in all ways. I will not deny the pull and when I feel it I will go and nothing can stand in my way accept myself. Stop time and Dance Magic Dance and find that we are living in a world that most people ignore, but it does not mean that it is not there. All things are where they need to be and we are loved by beings we are not sure exist anymore.
They all exist and I can feel there loving embrace and I ask for their assitance and that I may continue to have the courage to follow where they guide me to.
May I prick like a vine as you taste the grapes of wrath and we are all characters from our favorite books and movies. I want to wake up because sleeping hurts too much. I am a flower wilting in a jungle of concrete but I come back and I come back like Ivy on the walls and the writing on these walls becomes brighter to the point that you have to take notice. I have no magic that you don't possess yourself. If there is one difference it is that I am almost dogmatic in following this magic and letting it guide me in all ways. I will not deny the pull and when I feel it I will go and nothing can stand in my way accept myself. Stop time and Dance Magic Dance and find that we are living in a world that most people ignore, but it does not mean that it is not there. All things are where they need to be and we are loved by beings we are not sure exist anymore.
They all exist and I can feel there loving embrace and I ask for their assitance and that I may continue to have the courage to follow where they guide me to.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
You Should Know
This goes out to everybody who has come into my life no matter how briefly. I just wanted to say a very sincere thank you. To all those people who ever gave a couch/bed/floor/tent/extra room to sleep in I just wanted to say thank you. Anyone who ever gave me money to freestyle rap...anyone who ever let me use my healing gift to help them on their path as I helped myself on my path...to anyone who ever gave me a good laugh, cry or smile of any sorts...Thank You.
Thank you's are challenging because there are so many things I can thank you for, but how could I express it all. Sometimes since I can't express it in words that which I am thankful for, I might not even make an attempt and merely give you a look and hope that says it all and hope that you caught the look. You are the people that have helped make my life what is today. I want to especially thank anyone that has ever bet on a long shot, because life itself is a very long shot. Don't ever stop betting on long shots because when they come thru they come thru big and even if they don't, the adventure that they give you makes it all worthwhile.
The world around us is changing rapidly and all of the people that I write this to are a part of this change in one way or another. Time has taught me more patience, humitlity, and bit of senility, but not so much that I can not stop and say thank you. Thank you to the people that have given me rides or taken me out to a breakfast, lunch or dinner. To anyone who has ever cooked me a meal or was there for me to talk to when I really needed it. There is no way in life to truly understand what we have meant to someone, but I lose track what all of you have meant to me at some point. I want to say thank you for helping me to dream bigger and realize that I am the dream and that we all collectively make up the dream fabric like a giant organic cotton/hemp quilt. Where would I be without you is a question that I don't have to ever answer and thank you for making that the case.
Thank you especially to all the women that have helped make me such a romantic about life and all things living. Every one of you has a real special place in my heart. And to any woman whose heart I broke, I apologize sometimes I trample harder than I mean to and there is an art to trampling that I hope to become graceful at-- And reach that point where I always make your life better than it was before I entered.
Thank you's are challenging because there are so many things I can thank you for, but how could I express it all. Sometimes since I can't express it in words that which I am thankful for, I might not even make an attempt and merely give you a look and hope that says it all and hope that you caught the look. You are the people that have helped make my life what is today. I want to especially thank anyone that has ever bet on a long shot, because life itself is a very long shot. Don't ever stop betting on long shots because when they come thru they come thru big and even if they don't, the adventure that they give you makes it all worthwhile.
The world around us is changing rapidly and all of the people that I write this to are a part of this change in one way or another. Time has taught me more patience, humitlity, and bit of senility, but not so much that I can not stop and say thank you. Thank you to the people that have given me rides or taken me out to a breakfast, lunch or dinner. To anyone who has ever cooked me a meal or was there for me to talk to when I really needed it. There is no way in life to truly understand what we have meant to someone, but I lose track what all of you have meant to me at some point. I want to say thank you for helping me to dream bigger and realize that I am the dream and that we all collectively make up the dream fabric like a giant organic cotton/hemp quilt. Where would I be without you is a question that I don't have to ever answer and thank you for making that the case.
Thank you especially to all the women that have helped make me such a romantic about life and all things living. Every one of you has a real special place in my heart. And to any woman whose heart I broke, I apologize sometimes I trample harder than I mean to and there is an art to trampling that I hope to become graceful at-- And reach that point where I always make your life better than it was before I entered.
Friday, June 23, 2006
Let Go Of Tomorrow For Today
You have now this very moment to start a revolution, begin a romance, have a spontaneous romance, find something in your life that gives you meaning, experience something that will alter the way you envision the world. To forgive yourself, to find that which makes you blissful. To forget about tomorrow and embrace this very moment. The moment is always here you just choose to ignore here because later has got to be better and offers safe love from a distance with no chance to be hurt.
You and I formulate a new world in this very precise moment and we know that it started when we let go of the day that has yet to come for the day that already is. For some people tomorrow is their worse enemy because only then will they take the steps to bring about a life that they desire. For others tomorrow is day they hope will never come because they don't want life to catch up with them. They live always trying to escape the moment they are in. We are immortal though are bodies are mortal and for many of this creates discomfort and some of us don't believe that we are immortal.
I have a hopeful future, but I also have a hopeful present that is full of amazing, loving and eccentric people that have greatly enriched my life in countless ways. I wonder who I met will re-enter my life and what new role they will play. Even as I type now I just paused to take a breath and ground myself in this moment. To become comfortable with the uncertainty of the future makes the present moment more meaningful and we can immerse ourselves in the people and places that we are currently in, instead of living somewhere over the rainbow. Though I adore the rainbow, I know the rainbow is right outside your window and has always been, but at certain points it becomes more clear. The course for the future is easier to set upon once we have made peace with the moment of now. Turn off the mind and is effortless to be immersed in the cosmic wave and the dream like feeling that comes from that experience.
You and I formulate a new world in this very precise moment and we know that it started when we let go of the day that has yet to come for the day that already is. For some people tomorrow is their worse enemy because only then will they take the steps to bring about a life that they desire. For others tomorrow is day they hope will never come because they don't want life to catch up with them. They live always trying to escape the moment they are in. We are immortal though are bodies are mortal and for many of this creates discomfort and some of us don't believe that we are immortal.
I have a hopeful future, but I also have a hopeful present that is full of amazing, loving and eccentric people that have greatly enriched my life in countless ways. I wonder who I met will re-enter my life and what new role they will play. Even as I type now I just paused to take a breath and ground myself in this moment. To become comfortable with the uncertainty of the future makes the present moment more meaningful and we can immerse ourselves in the people and places that we are currently in, instead of living somewhere over the rainbow. Though I adore the rainbow, I know the rainbow is right outside your window and has always been, but at certain points it becomes more clear. The course for the future is easier to set upon once we have made peace with the moment of now. Turn off the mind and is effortless to be immersed in the cosmic wave and the dream like feeling that comes from that experience.
Monday, June 12, 2006
Funny Fantasy
Okay so I totally want to have a threesome with a beautiful girl named Virginia and another beautiful girl from Virginia. Of course this would hold true of Georgia, Kentucky, Indiana, or any other place for that matter. Truthfully, any two beautiful bi-sexual girls not doing it for the money (or at least assuming I am not aware of it) and me in a threesome, are nice. Lets be honest, I probably won't turn it down if one of them is named Sally and the other is from Virginia. But for whatever reason, this specific detail really appeals to me, and I recently saw that someone from West Virgnia was looking at my blog and Whoever you maybe, I will pretend that you are a beautiful bi-sexual woman who wants to have the most mind blowing threesome with me.
Also to specify I don't want either of these women to be drunk. They can be lightly buzzed, but I want them very present in the moment. I also want to have some amazing vegan carrot cake prior and after the sex followed by conversation about revolution. I want there to be naked swimming in a giant lake and I want the sexual tension building for a good 3 days before it explodes and I want it to be all of a sudden. This is a fantasy that I certainly think about and by putting it out there in cyberspace I have just dramatically increased my chances. I would also be quite happy if two women felt compelled to lie to me about being named Virgnia or being from Virginia. In general I am not into lying but I would accept it for this situation, but I still have faith that it can happen organically.
(Andy) The path to righteousness is coated with the lies of men... sometimes the days are left marinating in the filth they promote. Yet, sometimes, magic is born... save yourself from the day!
Also to specify I don't want either of these women to be drunk. They can be lightly buzzed, but I want them very present in the moment. I also want to have some amazing vegan carrot cake prior and after the sex followed by conversation about revolution. I want there to be naked swimming in a giant lake and I want the sexual tension building for a good 3 days before it explodes and I want it to be all of a sudden. This is a fantasy that I certainly think about and by putting it out there in cyberspace I have just dramatically increased my chances. I would also be quite happy if two women felt compelled to lie to me about being named Virgnia or being from Virginia. In general I am not into lying but I would accept it for this situation, but I still have faith that it can happen organically.
(Andy) The path to righteousness is coated with the lies of men... sometimes the days are left marinating in the filth they promote. Yet, sometimes, magic is born... save yourself from the day!
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