Monday, April 16, 2007

Looking at My Fears

Sometimes I fear that I am all wrong and sometimes I fear that I am mostly right and neither is completely true and yet both somehow make me a little nervous. We are all part of something that is much larger then any of us and we lose sight of the bigger picture. We become swallowed up entirely by our small dramas that mean nothing. Spending time in India help to put struggle into perspective. I have no problems and I never have had any problems. Only my mind thought there was a problem, but it always worked itself out. I am starting to realize how this is a waking dream and our thoughts are always shaping this dream that we live in.

New people enter our lives when we allow ourselves to make room for them. If we want something it will come our way, but when it does come let in and don't eye it suspiciously. I always get just what I needed and I as I want less the more I find myself receiving. We can't imagine or understand how we touch people's lives. We just have to allow ourselves to be present in this moment and offer our heart to other people and they will pass that on to others.

People can dislike or loathe George Bush and his group, but if people would refuse to pick up their weapons then they would have no power. By hating him we give him power and we focus too much of our energy on it and it drains us of our creative ability. I don't like what he does, but instead I focus on being the best person I can be at every moment and focusing on the things that matter to me. May I continue to pass on as many blessings as possible.


Dr John Bender said...

Your spelling is much better when you are in the States.

Since we haven't had any Bible thumping lately, let me interject:

And Kish said... arise, go seek the asses.

1 Samuel 9:3

Praise Jebus!

Anonymous said...

Tedevan-Don't listen to this ignorant man for his eyes and ears have been shut. He hasn't recieved the gift of Faith, and thus he just talks nonsense and trash like a young rebellious child. He has no knowledge because he has no Trust in the only wisdom, which is the Bible.

Dr. John Bender I pray that God opens up your blinded eyes, and cleans out your deaf ears so you may see and hear the Truth before Jesus Comes back and you tremble with the rest of us in fear and praise as you bow to the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.

Don't be a Fool by mocking your Lord. WAKE UP! Look around You! See the Truth!

But I see that you are opening up to the Word of God and that is why you posted this comment to remind me to keep posting scriptures for you to read. PRAISE GOD! for he is working in all of our lives, ripening our souls, and knocking at the door of our hearts!


Anonymous said...

sorry for being a little rough, but truth is beyond human feelings. i look at your post and am happy that you are giving out references like 1 Samuel 9:3. That is wonderful. Praise the lord.

Anonymous said...

People and Persecution
Go hand in hand with the Truth everlasting
Preaching is not in vain
Ripe Souls hunger and thirst after the King

In Joy do I speak of Jesus
He is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords
Emmanual God with Us
On Earth in the Faithful Believers Hearts

Soon All shall tremble and Bow
At his coming like lightning from east to west
In full glory out of the clouds
To destroy the rulers of darkness and resurrect those at rest

Happy is he when he comes
If his called are doing his will while they await
For these our the chosen ones
Who dwell in righteousness on the path called Straight

Broad is the way toward destruction
Hellfire is beyond the Gate of death for those who delay
Pray to God for Salvation
Repent be baptized and hear God to Follow his way

Jesus Says:
19As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent.

20Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.

21To him that overcometh will I grant to sit with me in my throne, even as I also overcame, and am set down with my Father in his throne.

22He that hath an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the churches.

18And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth.
19Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:
20Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.

Karol said...

Oh man, I gave you a dollar yesterday because you seemed sort-of different. Too bad you have the same knee-jerk politics like every other doofus hipster out there.

Dr John Bender said...

It's all about credentials, anonymous.

Dr John Bender - The Greatest Social Scientist of this Generation.

"Anonymous" - some jive-turkey, spouting at the mouth the same old drivel we've heard a million times. You could be anybody, but if I was to put money on it, I would bet you are some emotionally adolescent idiot who never gets laid, just like that Virginia Tech creep.

Revolution is evolution, buddy. Before you start getting all high and mighty, why don't we start with your name and URL so we can engage in dialogue instead of being solely subjected to one-sided, myth-based banter.

Anonymous said...

interested in correspondence dr. john bender? if you have any questions about truth or just want to discuss reality, you can email me at

getting laid is easy friend, its struggling to maintain purity that is a challenge o young one in wisdom. transmutation of fleshly lustful desire for a woman into spiritual love for God and humanity is the real goal of life.

Tedevan knows the art of Celebacy is a spiritual endeavor, so take his word for it, after all he is your hero.

Tedevan is hip, but Jesus is my hero.


one l said...

sometimes i read something you write and i think shit, i wrote that on the bus this morning, but then again you wrote this before this morning, but still i wrote it in my head. and part of me resents that you got it in words but that's just my ego drama because the flowerparts are rejoicing that we share that mind.

spreading the vibe.
peace, love.

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